Time

i miss the genuine innocence of being a kid
where the weekends meant just spending time with your family or just being excited about playing game cube...
where if you did somthing wrong, at the end of the day it didnt matter
when sleep was easier and thoughts about life didnt keep you up at night
where friends were just simply your friend
no deceit or mischief behind your back
when jelousy didnt exist to a point where it took over and mentally could destroy you
where just a simple stuffed animal was all you needed to be comfortable in your own skin

now its all about whos with who
"did you see that post on facebook?"
all about working and trying to figure out what to do next in life
now if you make a wrong decision its literally life changing and now we actually know theres no going back
literally one fucking chance.

growing up consists of finding out peoples true colours  and not whos real to your face but behind your back.
that the little things are the ones that need to be the most appreciated
and never take anything for granted.

Its Nothing.

dont you think its weird how you may know someone so well, then find out its nothing.
like the most important part about them, is your relationship with them, and you may not even know how they feel about you.
you can sit there and think that youre fallin in love together but youre the only one "in love" and you have no idea.
you have no idea that the person you spend all your time with is doubting you and their feelings towards you.
you have no idea that its nothing.
youre the only one who knows nothing about someone who has taken everything of yours, mentally, emotionally, physically.

After all that’s said and done, I still think you’re amazing. I still cherish every moment I ever spent with you and every smile you brought to my face. I’ll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if it was gone too soon. See, you were my miracle, you were my fairytale I got to live. I miss you

but yea...
ive actually just sat in my bed for awhile wondering what it is i even wanna say, and i still dont even know...
i wanna know this is right, that tomorrow i dont wake up and have you tell me that
"actually, i dont want you anymore."
youve hurt me, youve torn my heart apart, ive cried for days over you, and i know i hurt you and im so sorry about that, but i cant do it all again.
Not even just the break up like the fights and lies and betrayal, over and over and over again, it shoulda never been that hard. but yet we are still here...
being fucking insane because thats just what we do.
i love you.
i already tried getting over you once, i dont think i could do it again.
So we can this, and its gunna go right. i want it to.
i love you, i never stopped, i always have, and i always will.

familiar

"its when we are together and talking and just starting and makin up conversation just so theres always something to say because the only thing we wanna do in this moment is make this last.
ive spent days coming up with things to say to you and ive said it over and over in my head so that itd make sense to you. ive added and taken away things just so you know exactly how i feel. ive spent hours at night trying to sleep but my stomach keeps turning and you wont leave my mind.  I think of all the reasons to hate you and make them sound worse so i wont want you back. but then as my thoughts wander off i think of everything that made me fall in love, things that brought us together and made us fall apart. things that were over exaggerated or ignored. things that completely made me wanna be with you forever, then things that made me remember im still young. but then when we are together and its ok, and i feel safe and you say the exact right thing and everything feels fine, i forget. i forget why i hate you, i forget what i practiced saying and how much i wanted you to feel like shit and all my anger it disappears. it disappears into that familiar feeling of love.
I know the issues arent gone.
i know im going to back in this position sometime soon.
but in this moment where all i can think of is how much i miss you, i want you. i want you more cause ive had a taste of you being gone and that taste is not worth having over you."


laurabazso

Figuring it out

"sometimes my life doesnt revolve are you, sometimes i know im better then someone who can constantly let me down.
im tired of being disappointed or alone, but lifes got its lessons.
you live, you learn.
lifes a maze and we all just end up dying in it.
although theres those moment you wanna make last forever
and that time where the funniest thing happened and you cant explain it cause no one who was there will get it or find it funny
where theres that moment when you look around and you have everyone you want and everyone you need and you never ever want that to change.
but theres also that time that you wanna forget, and that time youve never cried so hard and not one person understood or could help.
or that time when you realized not one thing is the same, and everything is falling apart.
that time where you feel like you are just walking through life not appreciating anything and wondering where time has even gone.
that time where you thought you found that perfect guy, that time where you got your heart broken, and that time that you broke someones heart.
its life.
sometimes i swear it does nothing but work against us.
you dont always get what you want but you get what you are to get.
its not always going to be easy, but it will be worth it.
just gotta live a little longer to know what this whole life is about."


laurabazso

Closure.

"getting over someone isnt easy.
especially when they meant absolutly everything to you and you thought that you at least meant something to them..
then all of a sudden its just over , and you realize that how could every feeling you thought was real could actually be fake.
and you cant help but wonder when you will finally get over it and wonder why you just cant now.
so you depend on time to help you stop thiinking about it , but its those little thiings that people say and people do , on a day where you finally feel fine , that brings you riight back to where you started, although its easier then it was before , youre riight back to where you started.
and the worse part , you cant even talk to anyone about it because not one person seems to understand at all .
then all of a sudden you notice that youve been wasting youre time and thoughts and emotions and feelings on someone who did all thiis to you so easily to begin with.
thats when you start to find
new people , new thiings , new feelings , and a new best friend and someone who understands
and finally
closure."